| Well, this summer sucks. My friends and have-- oh wait, yeah. I don't seem to have friends anymore. It's the funniest thing, because either they work, or when they don't work they neglect to invite me to do ANYTHING with them. The best part is, people keep on being added to "the group", while I keep getting pushed farther and farther away. What they don't know is that the homepage on facebook let's me know exactly what they write to eachother, and it's usually plans for grandoise adventures and fun activities that I get to watch happen while I sit here idly, waiting for a call. And don't think for a second that I don't try to call them, no, of course I do. I don't get answered. Or if I do, they're working, or have already made plans which, weirdly enough, are the only activities that I get invited to (since they'd be mean, terrible people if they neglected to invite me while I'm making an effort to hang out with them). The great part is, it's not like this is the first time I've been completely ignored and pushed away by them. When I noticed it happening the last time, I confronted Gary about it, and he said he was sorry and would try to change it. But it never did. So I ask, what exactly did I do to deserve being completely ignored by people who I would've once called my best friend? Am I really that unbearably annoying? Am I just not cool enough to hang out with them? Is it the age difference? (It can't be, Anna hangs out with them all the time.). Do I not dress nicely enough? Or is it really, as Gary once said, the fact that I don't drive? Because if that's the case, then they should, I don't know, start inviting Hubes, seeing as he's been pretty left out too. He drives, and our curfews are the same, so no one gets inconvenienced. Regardless of whether they invite him or not, last I check, lack of driving ability shouldn't be criteria to make someone somehow sub-human compared to you. Regardless of whether or not I drive, I'm still a friend (and a real good one at that) and I still deserve to be included. To top it off, my best friend is in South Africa for another week and a half, and has already been gone for a week. I miss her like crazy, because normally if I were having a week like this I'd call her up and we'd chat, seeing as she knows how it feel to be stuck in the house doing nothing. I feel like I'm without my other half, no one will answer their friggin' phones, and so I'm stuck here in my house. Doing nothing. So I run in the morning. That's it. But hey, at least I'll be healthy this summer, right? My existence as of now consists of this: I rotate my body through the TV room, or the computer. I hope and pray that someone calls me, or someone goes online. They never do. Why? Because they have friends. I'm greatly looking forward to the Fourth of July tomorrow, because it will be the first time I've really hung out with anyone in a week. |
